For a very long time now I’ve been trying to get my thoughts
together for a decent post to my blog, but what I just realized is that I’ve
made my blog a place where I no longer belong; a group psychotherapy! Too many
advices that I seriously have no idea in what mental state was I to write them.
Where did little miss cheerful go? Have I completely lost myself somewhere
between life challenges? Or have I FOUND myself and I turned out to be someone
with no hope at all?!
There’s a point where any element on this earth loses its features by reaching; a breaking point for a bending tree takes its life away, exceeding the elastic limit of a spring will deform it to some lousy not so useful plastic, for us humans, that point can be measured with how much crap can you handle. Life is so unpredictable, a restless tornado that ends up only in a desert, where being upset makes no difference, where being lost is normal, where the only difference time makes is getting you older, where small dreams are being smashed just as well as big achievements..all gone in vain. So let’s just say we reach that point where we can never spring back.
There’s a point where any element on this earth loses its features by reaching; a breaking point for a bending tree takes its life away, exceeding the elastic limit of a spring will deform it to some lousy not so useful plastic, for us humans, that point can be measured with how much crap can you handle. Life is so unpredictable, a restless tornado that ends up only in a desert, where being upset makes no difference, where being lost is normal, where the only difference time makes is getting you older, where small dreams are being smashed just as well as big achievements..all gone in vain. So let’s just say we reach that point where we can never spring back.
To end this properly I must say that I prefer to having lost myself since what’s lost will eventually be found.. hopefully.. one day..
while i was visiting your words, i thought they are written for me !
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Good Job :)
Thanx Annous.. I guess we've all been there due to many disappointments, but at least it proves that we're still humans.
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You’re so right with this on this with so many points, but I think the contradiction between ‘turned out to be someone with no hope at all’ and ‘since what’s lost will eventually be found’ shows there’s always a chance for the spring to recoil…
ReplyDeleteThere is a point when anything will break, but you sum it up with ‘that point is how much we can handle’.
It can be a crappy life sometimes, being hurt and held back by our own, and others decisions and actions. Having illnesses thrown at us, watching loved ones die, being powerless to affect things we want to change.
I think there’s a good reason why kids are always laughing and smiling, they haven’t experienced life yet!
But there are plenty of people who still seem to be enjoying life, maybe some of them didn’t face what I’ve seen, but I know a lot have gone through worse. Disabilities, war, disasters, chronic or terminal disease, victims of others, nature and our previous decisions…
I’m sure we’re never the same after things which rock us to the core, but I think as well as bringing age time also helps heal wounds. It also helps us to learn and develop as a person. I think there’s a lot to the saying ‘whatever doesn’t break us makes us stronger’.
And sometimes these things can make us stop and think, what is really important to us?
There’d be no hero’s without disasters…
The only person who can change our lives is ourselves; the only person who can change how we feel about what happens in our lives is us and how we perceive it….
We can wallow in or own pity, or we can fight life through every battle… and I think the winners are those who can leave a legacy to be proud of, however small in the scale of things.
Life always has its ups and downs, which is why i seem happiness more as a compass, for finding my direction. So if you’re unhappy, surely that means you’re not lost, as now you can guide yourself away and towards what you really want…
To be honest, Simon.. I am a victim of my previous decisions, yet they shaped who I am now; a person I am proud to be. I finally know what I want.. I know myself! Which is the hardest if not the greatest knowledge of all. Although I do regret things I've done in the past, but I would do it all again if I had to choose; life lessons are the fruit of a lot of shit (excuse my French);)
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